The night before Handing up PL assignment and my first Tkd Poomsae Competition

I just want to record my feelings at this point in time and hope that I do not repeat the same mistakes over and over again.

I have just finished my first draft for the assignment this afternoon and am now in the midst of proof-reading and inserting footnotes. Anyone who writes essays often knows that one does NOT hand up one's first draft. I personally see how some parts of the 3500++ words essay do not gel with the other parts or do not relate to the question. I can think of 10 other different ways to re-structure the essay but frankly, unless I do not sleep tonight, i will not be able to do so. Actually, I do not think even if i go sleepless tonight, things will get better as I will get sick of re-reading almost the same thing over and over again.

I am disappointed with myself for not sticking to my own schedule and try to write my thoughts out earlier. it is only that way can i see how to re-organise my train of thought to make it more read-able for others.

I am not blaming the tkd competition tomorrow as a period of less than 15 hours is never enough to re-write a whole essay. Its my own fault and no one else. Nevertheless, I will try to improve this first draft I have and pray for the best.

LILIAN, DO NOT DO THIS FOR EQUITY!

The beginning..

of another exam season.

Not exactly true, I am in the midst of CLT but Im pretty much done with it.

Now have to prep for Prop and Company. Its getting tough. I feel the stress. I feel my heart shrink just thinking about the amount of work i have to get through in the next 2 weeks. But Im trying, believe me, I am.

Btw, I gained back the weight I lost during internship. Oh well, its expected, i guess, Ive been eating like no one else's business but Im determined to ignore that for the moment. My focus now is on Prop and Company. Nothing else. Ill still go for tkd this week to get my weekly dose of exercise, but that's it. I just hope its enof to prevent myself from getting sick, what with the weird weather and weakened immune system.

I'll try to blog more often too. its my outlet. not many people knows of this blog so i can really rant. Unlike my hotmail blog which is just for fun. I dont really like people to know my innermost thoughts and concerns, its like being naked in front of everyone, its too unnerving.

Anyways, Ive also decided to add something random everytime I blog. this time, its a wu liao quiz of sort: what does my height say about me? they dont really have my exact height, about 171

What Your Height Says About You

You are cheerful, expressive, and creative. You have the heart of an artist, and the whole world is your art project. You are the type of person who says “yes” a lot. You are optimistic and giving. You also love a challenge. You enjoy accomplishing the impossible. You are about as tall as the average Japanese man or the average Dutch woman.

What Does Your Height Say About You?

When the going gets tough..

I really shouldn't be doing this but I just feel like i gotta do some ranting.

We have an assignment for 'recess' week (my ass) but I dunno what Im doing! Ive been reading but not comprehending, typing but not understanding. Im scared shitless! Everytime I think about exams and assignments my insides shrink.

I dont want another D! I dont want another dissappointment! I dont want to cry silently! AGAIN.

What I do want:
Get decent grades (ie B average)
Get moving (exercise my dear!)
Lose weight (healthily)
Be happy (as always)
Make new, real friends

Im trying, I really am, despite all the excuses but Im not sure Im capable of it.

Scratch that, I can i know I CAN!


Signing off

Trying hard,
LiLz

CAKES!!!

Just bought 2 cakes fr Coffee bean at S$5.95!! Damn cheap and of course, they are ALWAYS good.
Had a taste of it (still in office, cant really just eat the whole thing) but OOooOoooo... cant wait. Its really very cheap LOR. hahahah.. Felt a bit off when the cashier told me, S$ 5.55. lolz...

Imagine getting 4 slices of cakes (incl meringue, cheese, chocolate) at only S$ 11. Too good to be true? No way. Not sure why they have such a promotion but they have it everyday so you definitely wont get cakes tat are bad, as in, not edible or 'sour'. Maybe coz they dont get many clients at night? Even just now I only see the people who were seated only drinking stuff and not having any of the cheap cakes. mayb its beneath them, bleh!

Anyway, dont care what people think as long as 'I' get benefit fr it. :D

I never thought its so boring!

Its my 2nd day at work and Im doing nothing! Yesterday, the other interns thought it was cool that I was doing SOMETHING on my first day but Im given nothing today, AT ALL! I think it has something to do with my position in the office. Its too far from where all the lawyers are. Out of sight, out of mind. Plus, its so near to the pantry that I can eat all day without fail. Its quite stocked really, tea, coffee, cookies, mee in cup etc. Way cool but I want work! Im not the makan gaji for nothing kind lor... Ergh, If this continues, Im not coming back next week.