When the going gets tough..

I really shouldn't be doing this but I just feel like i gotta do some ranting.

We have an assignment for 'recess' week (my ass) but I dunno what Im doing! Ive been reading but not comprehending, typing but not understanding. Im scared shitless! Everytime I think about exams and assignments my insides shrink.

I dont want another D! I dont want another dissappointment! I dont want to cry silently! AGAIN.

What I do want:
Get decent grades (ie B average)
Get moving (exercise my dear!)
Lose weight (healthily)
Be happy (as always)
Make new, real friends

Im trying, I really am, despite all the excuses but Im not sure Im capable of it.

Scratch that, I can i know I CAN!


Signing off

Trying hard,
LiLz

CAKES!!!

Just bought 2 cakes fr Coffee bean at S$5.95!! Damn cheap and of course, they are ALWAYS good.
Had a taste of it (still in office, cant really just eat the whole thing) but OOooOoooo... cant wait. Its really very cheap LOR. hahahah.. Felt a bit off when the cashier told me, S$ 5.55. lolz...

Imagine getting 4 slices of cakes (incl meringue, cheese, chocolate) at only S$ 11. Too good to be true? No way. Not sure why they have such a promotion but they have it everyday so you definitely wont get cakes tat are bad, as in, not edible or 'sour'. Maybe coz they dont get many clients at night? Even just now I only see the people who were seated only drinking stuff and not having any of the cheap cakes. mayb its beneath them, bleh!

Anyway, dont care what people think as long as 'I' get benefit fr it. :D

I never thought its so boring!

Its my 2nd day at work and Im doing nothing! Yesterday, the other interns thought it was cool that I was doing SOMETHING on my first day but Im given nothing today, AT ALL! I think it has something to do with my position in the office. Its too far from where all the lawyers are. Out of sight, out of mind. Plus, its so near to the pantry that I can eat all day without fail. Its quite stocked really, tea, coffee, cookies, mee in cup etc. Way cool but I want work! Im not the makan gaji for nothing kind lor... Ergh, If this continues, Im not coming back next week.

Shell-shocked

My Yr 1 2nd Sem grades are pretty shitty but Im over it, just gotta make sure it doesnt happen again but I was in store for another shock. The list of those getting Dean's List just came out and quite a few people in the list were pretty unexpected (for me). He got in too. Im ShOCKED! Not to say he is lousy or watever but i never thought he's tat good. I have to say, Im Proud. Im so happy for him. One thing for sure, i have an extra impetus to work harder. I can do it! I am sooo not beneath him. I slipped, thats all. Not gonna happen again, I swear.

This is a partial list of what I plan for next sem:
1) get 'B's, AT LEAST.
2) get my weight under 55kg. Im way overweight now and frankly, Im not liking it.
3) gonna join some debate tournaments (2 reasons: i need the points, i need the practice)
4) gonna work part-time; monthly salary aim: $ 100 (start low lar...)

From what I can see, this covers pretty much every aspect of my life, we'll c how it goes, promise i will update. my plan of getting my weight under 60kg before going back seems unlikely now but i promise i wont forget my ultimate goal. I Want to feel good. I Want to look good. Oledi have plans to undergo a meal replacement regime for the 1st month i go back (for the internship). C what happens then. I know it aint a permanent solution but i want fast results then try to keep it at that. keep thinking about going for diet supplements but am extremely worried itll be harmful so will try simpler ones 1st before going for drastic measures, hope i wont have to get to that.

Going Crazy

Have been meaning to do a Legal Theory essay this morning but ended up doing more revision on the topic. Feel so useless, i have read more than half of the readings but still dunno how to do the questions. No doubt, i am incredibly worried about the exams coz its 2 compulsory questions in 2 hrs, close-booked. What if I dunno wat she is asking? Wat if i totally blanked out? without any books at all, Id probably die.

Legal Theory really isnt tat bad a topic. It is interesting to read ppl's view and the thrashing tat goes with it but when it comes to MY view, well, I just dont have one. even if I do, my view is totally my own and i rilli dunno how to substantiate it with the very freaking chim readings we were given. I like abit here, abit there, and a whole lot of criticism. Argh.. its making me wanna just ........... AAARGGHH!

Ok, its out, gotta continue. Next up: Robert Alexy's 'D Argument fr Injustice: A Reply to Legal Positivism'