Tickled Fancies

Sweet Anthem

2011-10-25T00:12:00.001+08:00

Here are the fragances I ordered from SA:

From the 'regular' line: Catherine, Tara and Marianne
From the Fall 2011 line-up: Nell, Maureen and Annabelle.

They were $4 each and Meredith even threw in an extra, Rebecca, so the price went down to $3.423. But since shipping was $9, I paid a total of $33 for 7 scents. Confused yet?

Here's what SA says about each scent:
Catherine (floral) - Amber, Bergamot, Red Tea, Wisteria
Regal sea air wafts through droves of blooming wisteria trees in the summer palace. The Empress mulls over a new space for her shoes while sipping red caravan tea in the Amber room.
Tara (floral) - A royal rose in the throes of war - surrounded by a corona of currants, thyme, saffron, cedarwood branches, and ancient spice trade tea blends.
• Top Notes: Red Currant, Saffron, Thyme
• Heart Notes: Damascus Rose
• Base Notes: Black Tea, Rosewood, Tobacco

Marianne (floral) - Fig, Guava, Leather, Mahogany, Peony, Pink Pepper, Tuberose, White Patchouli

Romantic spices, sugared peony blossoms, and tuberose flowers from a lover; they read together in whispers, from a dust-laden tome of Shakespearean sonnets.

Rebecca (musk) - Agarwood, Amber, Black Pepper, Bluebonnets, Ginger, Honey, Pear, Tobacco

The deepest black oud and smoke, mulled with a harvest blend of honey and amber, and livened with ginger and cranberry. Candied pears, Texas flowers, and late summer blooms are strewn throughout.

Nell (Spice) - Black Tea, Cardamom, Carnation, Creamy Milk, Rose, Peach

A tea fit for any such party: gilded roses, a bouquet of carnations, and a black tea sweetened with milk, spiked with a smattering of cardamom, and a peach slice swimming where a lemon should be.

Annabelle (Marine) - White Amber, Jasmine, Osmanthus, Sea Salt

Sweltering jasmine flowers cling to a cloud of osmanthus, and the spray of sea air and salty musk will surely keep you oceanside even though the summer respite has left us.

Maureen (Oriental) - Almond, Chai Tea, Fig, Moroccan Mint, Moroccan Rose, Myrrh

These thousand dreams could wake you; a complicated, seductive "floriental" for any girl child in the dark.

Rebecca doesnt smell musky to me at all. In the bottle, it is sweet, abit too sweet, slightly cough syrup-y and I can get a hint of spice. On my skin though, I only smell the sweetness of the scent, mostly honey and flowers. No hint of pepper nor tobacco after about 10 minutes.
More than 20minutes after, the scent smells more 'grounded', not so bright. This is likely to be the tobacco coming through, but again, it is not bad or smoky. Just makes the scent less bright and sweet.
This is really a very nice scent to wear, easy on the nose, nothing too strong, and am intrigued by the slight smokiness.
The smokiness really comes out at the end, but I would not say that it is an overpowering smokiness. For someone new to such scents, it is still quite bearable, probably due to the juxtaposition with the sweet scent of the rest of the perfume.

I got alot of the Currant from Tara when it was first applied, slightly tart smell with a bit of rose. After a few minutes though, the rose really comes through, with just a hint of the tartness at the back. I get a bit of a 'green' scent coming through as well, could be the thyme but I have not took a whiff of 'real' thyme before aside from knowing that it is a type of herb. Quite a demure, lady scent, something for days where I am going for the 'look', which is not very often. 10 minutes down, still a very green, rosy scent.

Maureen started out with very heavy almond, which made be cringe. I can take the nuts but i dislike anything almond-flavoured. After awhile, I start to get the Tea and slight sweetness from probably the fig. After around an hour also, there doesnt seem to be alot of change. The scent is very very sweet. I dont get alot of the Chai, which would probably bring down the sweetness a notch. And I can totally get the 'floreiental' girl child in the dark vibe. Not for me.

NY Times Personality Quiz

2011-10-18T01:08:00.001+08:00

You are super stylish and you love nothing more than shopping both for yourself and your home which is beautifully furnished from top to bottom. You take great pride in how things look outwardly and have a great admiration for the aesthetically beautiful. You have got a wonderfully childlike spirit. You see the beauty in the simplest of things. Happiness is not something to save for the future, it's about living in the moment.

You're creative and imaginative and like to be inspired. Home is where your heart is and you love nothing more than putting personal touches to your space. You're laid-back and relaxed with a very healthy attitude to life. Naturally down-to-earth, you don't believe in sweating the small stuff. Life's for living, with minimum stress and maximum enjoyment and so fun with family and friends is top of the list as far as you're concerned. Food is a definite passion too and you're always up for tantalizing your taste buds. You're a bit of a dreamer at heart. But there's nothing wrong with that. Set your sights high and you'll create the life you deserve. The Home and Garden section is perfect for you - bring the latest trends into your home

My Result! Nothing too out of the ordinary and truth be told, too vague to be surprising. :D

Wiggle Perfume and Sundries

2011-10-06T14:29:00.001+08:00

First off, I am by no means a perfume girl. Most scents smell generic to me and I do not have the nose to differentiate one note from another. The nose for food smells, yes, but perfume, nope!

Nonetheless, I do still get sucked in by reviews and packaging and therefore, Wiggle. I ordered and received my order a while ago but never really played with the items for awhile. As I do not use perfume everyday, I can take some time to go through what I have and form an opinion on them. After many months, these are my thoughts. (Expect short, like or dislike reviews, like I said, I dont really know my scents)

DU BOIS:
I like this. I was testing this and Valdoste and decided that DB is much more wearable and likable to me then Valdoste. Valdoste smells a tad 'sharp' and 'obvious', if that makes sense. Basically, it doesnt fit.

Du Bois however, after it settles for abit, gives a comforting and yes, creamy scent. It is not a 'clear' scent but warm and easy to wear, i feel.

Here's the description from Wiggle:

Du Bois: DuBois is a heady, lavish blend of creamy white scents. A mix of gardenia, almond, and egyptian musk with a hint of cinnamon, this fragrance is very luxurious and sophisticated, but still equally appropriate for day or evening. There's something very retro about this scent, it's very ladylike and glamorous, with a bit of a sparkle.

Valdoste: I cant seem to find the listing for Valdoste. Maybe it is seasonal? Anyways, Im smelling this 30mins after application and it seems to have settled to less 'obvious; scent on me. It is still more cheery and bright than Du Bois though and maybe more suitable for weekends, to boost the mood? We'll see.

Lastly, Wiggle's etsy listings are very well thought out and interesting. It is definitely worth a look.

Lucy Minerals Haul

2011-08-26T09:21:00.007+08:00

This is not my first order but my previous orders have always centered on LM's face products. I got my hands on a few eyeshadows previously and loved the texture! They were always smooth and shimmery and doesnt irritate my eyes at all.

This time round, Anne had a fundraiser bundle of $15 for 5 eyeshadows, all proceeds go to her employee Maria who had some hospital bills to pay due to the early birth of her daughter. LM's eyeshadows usually go for $7 each so this was too good a promo for me to miss. In order to get the freebie for orders over $25, I ordered also 2 Ambrosia Lipbalms. I already have 1 of them and needed the other 2 to complete my 'collection' :P

Here's what I got:

There's more than just 5 containers there because I asked for 4 blush samples in lieu of the full-sized blush with over $25 purchase.

For the blushes, i asked for Mocha, Juicy Peach, Sunny Bronze and Matte Rose.

It is really unexpected that when I swatched these I found that 2 are more matte in nature (Sunny Bronze and Matte Rose) and the other 2 are very shimmery. My swatches did not turn out very well so I am not going to post it here. Suffice to say one would prefer a lighter hand when handling LM blushes.

As for the eyeshadow bundle I ordered: Chelsea (neutral shimmer); Blush Beige (matte); Rose Shimmer (cool shimmer); Antique Lilac (cool shimmer) and Sand Castle (neutral shimmer)

The swatch order is as listed above.
Chelsea and Sand Castle appeared very similar on my arm even though Chelsea seemed more taupe in the jar. They are both very much a shimmery reddish brown.
Blush Beige may actually work as a blush and reminds me of the Matte Apricot color I have from LM.
Rose Shimmer is a bright shimmery pink, much brighter than in the swatch. Will look great as a lip color!
Antique Lilac is very true to the swatch but with more shimmers.

To be very honest, the colors arent what I would wear often but I still have to give LM credit for the texture of their pigments. I swatch with my finger and none is scratchy as far as I could tell. Nonetheless, they are very simple colors, no where near as complex as say, fyrinnae or Darling Girl but they are good basic colors to have. I also have Mocha Shimmer and Driftwood which were my favourite one-wash colors awhile back so I am speaking from experience here.

LM is also very famous for their foundations which contain antioxidants. Do check them out as they have specials very often which make purchasing from them a very fun.

Here's the link to the website: http://www.lucyminerals.com/

Gem Nails @ Toa Payoh Central

2011-07-26T21:46:00.002+08:00

So, despite my supposed financial constraint, I went to get a pedicure this morning at Gem Nails. It wasn't exactly planned but I had intended to get a new pedicure as the one I got previously from Clarke Quay is starting to grow out.

Gem Nails looks nice enough. Simple, with leather chairs and white tubs but I do have quite a few gripes:
1) the water level in the tub is not high enough! My feet feels cold.
2) there is no scrub included in the $33 for pedicure (I like getting scrubs and I expect them when I pay for a 'normal' pedi)
3) they do not use the fan blower, which means you have to wait longer. This is not a problem if I have time but I don't, i needed to come back for class. What resulted is extremely smudged nails when I came home from school.
4) The girl who did my nails seemed nice enough but the others seems like they couldn't care less. When people walk in, they somehow can pretend they did not see them for about 1 minute or 2, what's up with that!?

Anyways, I am now on the search for a $30 classic pedicure. The search might be a long one though, with Groupon and BigDeal keep having deals on mani/pedis. I just bought one, $30 for 'spa' mani pedi, and I have another one I bought earlier, also for many pedi, but cheaper $28. Can't wait to go and get myself pampered (again) =)

A Yearning, Unspoken

2009-09-20T09:25:00.002+08:00

I have never had a boyfriend. 21 years and counting on this earth and I had never had a partner. I have had male friends, quite a few of them, and am quite close to some to the extent that I do not mind going out one-to-one and I have had people interested but I had never really taken the plunge. I have always told people, I am happy being single; I have friends who accompany me; what are boyfriends if not guys who you turn to when you are lonely and in need of help or comfort - aren't friends sufficient then?

But recently, I think differently.

I never admitted that I want someone there, someone to hug me when I am cold, a shoulder to lean on and someone I won't feel to call in the middle of the night when I can't sleep. Friends are good and all but i guess having one person who knows almost all your secrets and who will not mind you being needy and whine-y is even better. Even with my closest friends I will feel bad if I whine and complain and drag them down with me when I am feeling moody.

I always put up a front in public, I am the slightly naive but confident girl who speaks too loud and is always sure of herself. I am the atrocious but funny friend to all my acquaintances. Even to my closer friends, I complain but will have no problem snapping out of it. What people don't see is that I feel lonely easily, I don't have to wait till the middle of the night to cry and sob. All I need is solitude and a thought of my family and friends who are not with me and that is sufficient to start the tears.

I know relationships aren't easy, that they require a lot of work, which is why I am so hesitant to get involved in one but I am starting to wonder whether it will be worth it. Whether at the end of the day I am not as strong as I think I am. Whether at the end of the day, I am just as needy and weak as everyone else and need someone to prop me up when things get rough. I hate feeling like this, I hate not being who I want to be. I hate thinking all this but no one to tell. No one really understands, not even me, what I feel and what I want.

Maybe all I need is just to be more honest with myself. But I wonder, will things be better then?

Something to remember

2009-08-30T23:13:00.005+08:00

I was recently hurt by a friend, or at least someone I thought was a friend. It wasn't anything 'bad', she did not backstab me, lie to me or anything but she made me very disappointed. I think this incident caused a huge irreparable damage on our friendship, on my part at least, I doubt I can speak for her.

This is not the first time I am disappointed by what a friend did. I am starting to wonder whether its because of my expectations of what friends are supposed to be like. I take it personally when people say negative things of people I consider to be friends. I take it personally when they do things I disapprove of, I feel like its my fault one way or the other when they do something 'wrong' whether its being a bitch or going back on their word. I feel like I saw them in a different light then before, a clearer, brighter light and that maybe, they are not who I think they are. And that is painful to me.

I am starting to think that I have to change my views of what friends should be/do and lower my expectations from them. With my growing circle of friends and my wider view of the world, it seems clear to me that people only look out for themselves and a select few, and that it is unlikely that Im within the select few of most of my friends. My view of friendships should be like stems from my expectation of myself in a friendship. You root for each other and trust each other. You dont have to tell each other everything but when you need a shoulder to lean on, friends are who you go to. and I do try to do all this. This is also why i have few 'friends' but a lot of 'people I know', i categorise my acquaintances accordingly. It seems like this is not how it is for other people. Friends are just people you know and hang out with. They are no different from your colleagues at work or people you meet at the pub but seems to get along well with from the start.

Since leaving home for my tertiary education, I not only see more of the world, also see how idealistic I have been. I have been confined to my little pink-tinted glass cage. You see what is happening but there always seem to be a silver lining, there's always a positive side.

I know this is part of growing up but it makes me wonder whether I want to go through this process, cant I see things through my pink glass forever? I know Ill be happier that way...

Cedele - Pink Beet Cake

2009-08-05T09:04:00.004+08:00

After reading a couple of posts of Cedele cakes at another food blog, I've decided to try a them for myself. I have to say, I've never been a fan of Cedele cakes, they just seem too healthy for me. Cakes for me are an indulgence, they are for celebrating, for making the eater feel happy, how do they do that if they are made into healthier, skinnier versions?

I had their famous Carrot Cake before and wasn't impressed so I settled for their new Pink Beet Cake. Essentially the cakes is supposed to have Beetroot in it which causes it to be pinkish. This might be true but I doubt the beet content is high since the cake is extremely palatable. I probably should also note that the information card mentions that the cake contains Grapeseed Oil.

The cake itself looks a bit like a carrot cake but with beetroot shavings instead of carrot. Tastewise, its slightly sweet abit savory, overall very easy on the tastebuds, I've never had Beetroot just like that before (ie, not in mixed juice or soup form) so I cant say there isn't any Beetroot tast but I have heard that pure Beetroot juice is hard to stomache so I think there's very little of the stuff in the cake.

The most surprising thing about the cake is how soft and moist it is! This is probably the work of the Grapeseed Oil. One can finish the cake without feeling overwhelmed but then again, it is a small cake to begin with, lol.. Despite the healthy conotations, the cake is still a bit rich, with cream cheese layered so I do wonder exactly how healthy it is and whether Cedele is really worth all the hype.. Moreover, as I got the cake in takeaway form, I discovered that the cake is quite 'oily' the wax paper the waitress placed under the cake was pretty oily when I got back, about an hour later.

Nevertheless, I think the case is definitely worth a try but for the price, $5, for such a small cake, I doubt Ill be getting it again anytime soon. I still like my cake to be rich and heavy, something to savour, something to be had once in a while, an indulgence, a mini love affair..

Mirana

2009-08-05T08:42:00.004+08:00

So I've been interning at Raffles Place area for the past week but I've never really gotten around trying their bakes. I had their morning mee once, OMG, that was BAD! But since its edible, I still had them for lunch. But seriously, no second time...

Yesterday, I dropped by the bakery in the evening to get some bread for breakfast. They did not have many varieties left at around 6pm so I got myself something that seems like it could be brown glutinous rice bread or chocolate sprinkles bread. It turned out to be the latter. I'm fine with chocolate, so no complaints there but the thing that got me was how soft the bread was! Honestly. I had dinner but couldn't stop myself from having the bread as snack and I was very content with it. I am very much a bread person when it comes to carbs so you just have to take my word for it. I have to say that the loaf was not chocolatey per se but it had a slight milo taste to it, making it slightly sweet but the chocolate is not at all obvious. Its good for those who do not like plain bread but will not satisfy chocolate lovers looking for loafs with high cocoa content.

Like I said, the bread is pretty good, soft, porous, light, I'm just sad it took me more than a week to discover this. My internship's ending this week, I can probably get another loaf before I leave but I'll definitely be back.

Another first

2009-07-25T23:04:00.003+08:00

I think Im drunk!

(Warning, below may just be random rambling)

Why is that such a revelation? I've never drunk so much as to get drunk. I drink hard liquor at home, whiskey, but I never drink more than just a sip or two... or a cocktail, at a restaurant.. I doubt anyone can get drunk on that..

Today, I drank red wine, yes, just wine, and I think I'm finally feeling the 'woozy' feeling. Im one of those who drank the most, despite the fact that I was drinking with another 3 guys. The wine was not exactly great. It wasn't exactly fruity or sweet, but was pretty dry but I did not have any thing else to drink and so I just drank. My head was still pretty clear, i think, but I am a bit woozy.. I feel 'funny' and my whole body, till the tip of my feet, feels warm... Despite my deep breaths, I do not feel any calmer.... I think this is the start of 'drunkenness' lolz! I also cant really walk straight! lolz! What an interesting feeling!

Brewerkz Dinner

2009-07-07T09:16:00.001+08:00

Last Friday, I went to Brewerkz for dinner with 2 friends. We were contemplating between Brewerkz and Timbre but in the end decided on Brewerkz as we wanted to try their 'brews'.

We got their Fruit Beer (I forgot exactly what they are called) and Golden Ale. Truth be told, I can barely tell the difference except for their colours. The taste is pretty similar. I am not much of a beer drinker and to me, both brews do not taste much more different than the normal canned beers. Maybe Im just asking too much as I was looking forward to some sweet, light beer.

As for food, we ordered the smaller pizza to share between us. We are not on diet or anything but we knew the portions were pretty generous and we ordered sides (Fries and Salad).

We got one of the white pizzas, the Merlion, which is essentially a seafood pizza. I thought it was pretty good. The crust wasn't soo crispy that the whole slice will fall apart when u bite but there was a crispy layer and the dough was pretty chewy (I like such textures as I love the taste of carbs ><).

The Fries were alright,thick outer layer but soft inside. However, I find the outer layer too thick which made it more crusty then crispy and it did cost us around S$8/9 so it definitely didn't come cheap.

As for the salad, we ordered the Garbage Salad which did look like garbage, its just lettuce with some salami, mozarella and vinagrette of some sort. It wasn't great and definitely wasn't worth the $10.99 we were charged for it but it was one of the cheaper salads on the menu.

We were too lazy to move so we settled for desserts at Brewerkz, BAD DECISION. Not only were the portions mini, prices steep, they also weren't any good. I was hoping to see portions like those they serve at PS Cafe but alas, that was not the case. Seriously, do not try the desserts there. You can get better brownies at Munchie Monkey, NUS YIH Center, IMO.

After the dinner we went over to Liang Court, my first visit to the mall and subsequently walked to City Hall MRT. The idea was to burn calories but I doubt that leisure walking helps much when it comes to losing weight ;)

2nd Update from Home, KK, Sabah

2009-06-16T16:23:00.000+08:00

This is my second last week at home. I have to admit, there are some good and bad times but generally, I know I’ll only remember the good ones coz they totally outweigh the bad.

To keep this blog light and to not burden anyone reading this (including the future me), Ill just talk about my happy times here :)

For a start, it has been great seeing my parents again. My mom is still like before, a bit crazy, a bit loud but sooo lovable! Her cooking (esp her cake) is still top-notch and she still gives in to my whims and fancies, this I suspect will continue as I spend so little time at home. She’s still a great shopping partner. Reining me in at times but still let me splurge if I really like an item (Ill list, or at least try to, what I got this trip home later). My dad seems to have gotten more and more stubborn, a sign of the Taurus that he is, but he also knows not to be too strict with me. Making me exercise is one of his lifetime goals which unfortunately isn’t going to happen very often. But he is generally sweet, just that he has abit of a hard time expressing his feelings. Lucky for him Im a very understanding girl and I know him well enough to not be offended.

Then there is my brother, who deserves a special paragraph for himself. I sometimes have trouble deciding what to make of him. He is naughty and rebellious but at the same time extremely sweet. He gets me sweets and lets me have extra food/the last piece on the plate. He also ‘tried’ to get some hugs which did not materialize, our family does not display our affections much so I still have trouble giving him hugs though I love him very much. These are little things but I do believe that the little things that happen soo often really amount to a lot and have to be cherished. We can really ‘click’ we sing songs aloud (sometimes in public) and understand each other’s humour most of the time. He also is very tolerant of my moods (I think Im too used to staying alone that I cant be tolerant to people for very long). Oh, it is also great to have him around as he is plumper then I am (at least fr the looks of it) and he eats way more than I do which decreases my guilt for being such a glutton.

Oh man, I miss them already!

1st Life in KK update

2009-05-21T09:05:00.000+08:00

It has been a week since Ive been back. Life’s good, though a bit constricting. That’s the price to pay if you want to come home when you know that your parents are more strict/protective than others. Example? Im not allowed to hitch a ride from my friends. Yes, I will be 21 this year. Imagine how frustrating that is! I know their heart is at the right place but I do think they should step into my shoes for a moment and consider my feelings. Granted I do not argue about this (maybe a bit) but how does one argue against sound reason? Especially that reason is calculated to ensure your safety and happiness?

Anyways, the good news is I can always play the ‘but I haven’t seen him/her in N years!’ card and thanks to it, I get to stay with my friend and her friends for a night at their hotel. The plan: Dinner at Salut (a place known for its seafood) and then drinks at @tmosphere (tacky, I know). Its just for the night, they will be leaving KK early tomorrow morning for Labuan (Island of cheap booze and chocolates!) but I will not be going. That means I’ll have a day at 1 Borneo. I discovered late last night that 1 Borneo has a MAC store! How cool is that!!! Yes, Im definitely going to stop by though I don’t really have anything I want to get. I never imagined Sabah to have a MAC. If I am lucky enough and the Style Warriors collection is out, I might just get the New Age Bronze (or something like tat) lipstick. I do so like the colour though I have to admit, I honestly doubt it is hard to find a dupe for it. We’ll see. I also want to get a loose powder. Not from MAC, probably Chanel or Dior. I saw some raves but forgot which brand it was from, actually I think it is Chanel.

That’s it for now. More updates on my buys (if any).

Love,
LiLs

Tired

2009-04-07T19:11:00.002+08:00

I'm not stressed, at least i donot feel like it, i just feel crazily tired. I am barely awake the whole day. even on the bus, I have trouble ensuring that I keep my eyes open. This is very strange. I was not even reading anything. Actually, i find some of my readings quite interesting.

I am worried. Worried as to whether I am down with something. Whether Im coming down with depression. I am not making this up. I hate feeling what I feel. this is the first time Im NOT feeling tired and sleepy, but I think its the effect of caffeine in my Tea. I wish I know what is happening. Why I can't just be lazy and know it. I hate feeling like this. I want to know what is happening. I want to feel responsible to what happens to myself, good or bad.

Oh, Im feeling some pain in my left shoulder blade. About 2 weeks ago, I had some chest pain when I breath. it lasted for about a day. At some times, it was so bad I had to bend over to take a breath.

I need to focus. Live in the moment. Concentrate on what is important: school, study, Public Law, Equity and Trusts. THEY ARE MY LIFE NOW. Until 5th May. Nothing else matters, including pain, sleep, food.

Now I just need to convince myself of it.

The Central @ Clark Quay

2009-03-16T19:45:00.003+08:00

My first visit to Central! Decided to skip Equity lecture in favour of getting a haircut after hearing that LCS was cancelled. She's always doing that, last minute stuff! Actually, I had wanted to try Maison Hairmake at FEP but unfortunately, I was unable to get through so decided to head somewhere near after my Pro Bono stint and settled on Central.

And what a choice it was! Turns out Central is full of Jap food outlets! I even saw quite a few Japanese looking for a restaurant to get their lunch. Interesting. I've heard good things about Waraku, Sun and moon, Petit Provence and Ma Maison and they all have outlets there! Unfortunately, I did not feel like eating proper food so I missed out Waraku..

Al right, so what did i have? I had Provence's Choc Wassant. Its good lar~ I know now why people rave about it but $0.60 for such a small piece... It definitely warrant a second thought before each buy.

Also tried Starbucks' Wholemeal Multigrain bagel. I requested for it to be toasted so it was, to a slight brown but oddly enough, it was not hot enough to melt the cold butter! My guess is that the cold weather cooled down the bagel too fast.

After hearing SOOO many raves on Sun and MOon, I die die have to try their cheesecake but the place was so hard to find! Central in general was quite a maze for me... suaku me only like straightforward places XP Anyways, I had the tofu cheesecake. Erm.. I did not think it was all that great. it was abit too sour for me but I wonder if its because the cake was left in the open too long as there was this small part around the middle of the cake where it was milky and slightly sweet. YUMM! But, it was only a very small part of the cake. As i said before, I did not feel like having proper food so no mains but I went during tea time so even if I had wanted, they do not serve mains anyway.

I do so hope to go to Central again. Not much to shop but definitely alot of food to try out!

Coffee Bean HV 09 March 09

2009-03-09T19:01:00.002+08:00

Went to HV today and had a craving for CB's carrot cake. Popped into the place and ordered their new drink - mango green tea frap and of course, carrot cake.

CARROT CAKE:
I think up till now, CB's carrot cake is the best Ive tried. its moist and has enough nuts, not too much but not stingy with it either. and the cream layer, HEAVEN. Its not the spiced type either, just slightly oily (butter?) cake with carrot shreds and nuts (walnuts i think). MMMM... they give you a pretty big slice too, for S$5.50 though I have to say that I have had lunch so that might have affected my appetite.
The bummer is that I came back and checked for calories and I realise it has a whopping 970 cals! thats like, almost 1/2 to one day's total amount of calories. Guess you should share them if you can yea :)

Mango GREEN TEA FRAP
Frankly, the mango is negligible. I seldom drink CB stuff but this is ok but I somehow cant finish it. Too full? Maybe... It feels, not overly sweet or what, but boring, for some reason. Not something I'd go back for.

Anyways, moral of the story, eat only what you want. for me, its carrot cake when I go CB. Forgot to note that I have tried Cedele's carrot cake too but somehow, it didn't work its magic on me at all! CB all the way~~

My own health drink

2009-03-05T21:28:00.002+08:00

Today I made my own self-created chinese-style health drink, lolz..
its a combination of barley, chrysanthemum, red dates, longan and rock sugar to taste.

I wont say its good. Its unique, hahahah... the barley made the drink a bit murky while the flower made it yellow. not the most appetizing thing ever. Moreover, I refuse to put more sugar so there's a bit of this odd feeling on your tongue coz of the concentratedness of the drink.

I realise that i actually like barley taht is not too mushy. there's this very nice texture. will do this type of drink again. Actually, no choice, ingredients already bought, gotta use them somehow :P

Spinelli Pastries

2009-03-03T16:17:00.002+08:00

Stopped at Science Canteen for lunch today and got myself a tiramisu and 2 chocolate chip cookies for dessert. Actually, the tiramisu was meant to be dinner but I wasn't able to restrain myself for trying it >,<

Anyways, the tiramisu's not good at all (reminder to self: never be a cheapo and go for cheap tiramisu). The white layers doesn't taste nor feels like its cheese. maybe, just maybe its some sort of cheese + gelatine mixture coz it felt jelly-like. THe cake layers are alright, nothing great not to bad. The best thing about the cake is the chocolate layer on top. You know how they sprinkle chocolate powder on top of cakes, well this one had powder and a very nice layer of chocolate. However, despite the label stating the cake contained rum, it did not taste like it AT ALL! I should have tried the carrot cake, had wanted to but the lady said the tiramisu is better, what crap.

I also got myself 2 chocolate chip cookies for $1.20. its cheaper than Subway but maybe healthier? It is sort of a no-frills cookie. Butter cookie with chocolate chip added in. nothing spectacular either...

Holland V trip

2009-03-01T16:25:00.004+08:00

Recess week has come and gone and I did not step out of NUS except in 2 occasions: (1) to hand in my assignment at btc; and (2) to NTU for IVP. BOTH happened on the same day :S Imagine how sucky my week has been.

Anyway, despite having 2 more assignments due I decided to get out of school for a while and went to HV. There are 2 primary reasons for this. A massage at Qi Mantra and to get Brand's Bird's Nest at Promo price at Cold Storage.. lolz.. Cheapo me.

I had wanted to try Marmalade Pantry after hearing so much about it. Michelle also recommended the place to me seeing as its so near. Alas, i was too late, the HV outlet has closed down and in its place is a Restaurant called 'Mykii' to be read as Mee-kai. On the menu, their desserts looked good so i decided to try the place out though I did not try their desserts in the end.

I really have to recommend their Green Tea with Gingko ($6.80). I think they blended/crushed the Gingko or something as there are powdery stuff in the drink. Not to worry, they do provide sifters, though those things aren't as effective as you would want it to be. Forget all that though, the tea had such a pleasant smell! I am not joking, it had this slightly minty very refreshing scent! I din finish the drink in the end as I had to rush but I would not mind going back to the place and just have a drink and a dessert.

As for mains, I got the Panini with Beef Bulgogi ($15.80) which comes with kimchi. I never was a fan of Korean food but bread always appeal to me so I ordered this. It wasn't too bad. the bread was nicely toasted, with a hint of butter, yummm... But i tot the beef itself was just a tad too salty. there was also some sauce which is nice, as it ensures that the bread wont be too dry. The beef, though salty, still have a slight beefy smell which suits me just fine. I don't think I would go back for it though, unless I have carb craving.

And why did i forego dessert? well, as i said, I was in a rush but more importantly, their extremely petite pastries are $2 each. Its not TOO expensive but definitely not cheap and I question their freshness as I saw only one mini tiramisu.. Moreover, as I was going to Cold Storage, i figured its time to try Swissbake's cakes which, to be very succint, was bad.

I tried Opera ($3.90) from Swissbake and I really did not like it. the only nice layer was the chocolate layer which has quite intense taste. This is my first time trying Opera so Im not too sure what to expect but some of the other layers seems stale.. I did finish it though, hahahah.. don't waste ma! I should have followed my instinct and got Coffeebean Carrot Cake instead. That, my dears, is a piece of heaven. I miss it soooo much!

The night before Handing up PL assignment and my first Tkd Poomsae Competition

2009-02-26T23:19:00.002+08:00

I just want to record my feelings at this point in time and hope that I do not repeat the same mistakes over and over again.

I have just finished my first draft for the assignment this afternoon and am now in the midst of proof-reading and inserting footnotes. Anyone who writes essays often knows that one does NOT hand up one's first draft. I personally see how some parts of the 3500++ words essay do not gel with the other parts or do not relate to the question. I can think of 10 other different ways to re-structure the essay but frankly, unless I do not sleep tonight, i will not be able to do so. Actually, I do not think even if i go sleepless tonight, things will get better as I will get sick of re-reading almost the same thing over and over again.

I am disappointed with myself for not sticking to my own schedule and try to write my thoughts out earlier. it is only that way can i see how to re-organise my train of thought to make it more read-able for others.

I am not blaming the tkd competition tomorrow as a period of less than 15 hours is never enough to re-write a whole essay. Its my own fault and no one else. Nevertheless, I will try to improve this first draft I have and pray for the best.

LILIAN, DO NOT DO THIS FOR EQUITY!

The beginning..

2008-11-16T20:38:00.003+08:00

of another exam season.

Not exactly true, I am in the midst of CLT but Im pretty much done with it.

Now have to prep for Prop and Company. Its getting tough. I feel the stress. I feel my heart shrink just thinking about the amount of work i have to get through in the next 2 weeks. But Im trying, believe me, I am.

Btw, I gained back the weight I lost during internship. Oh well, its expected, i guess, Ive been eating like no one else's business but Im determined to ignore that for the moment. My focus now is on Prop and Company. Nothing else. Ill still go for tkd this week to get my weekly dose of exercise, but that's it. I just hope its enof to prevent myself from getting sick, what with the weird weather and weakened immune system.

I'll try to blog more often too. its my outlet. not many people knows of this blog so i can really rant. Unlike my hotmail blog which is just for fun. I dont really like people to know my innermost thoughts and concerns, its like being naked in front of everyone, its too unnerving.

Anyways, Ive also decided to add something random everytime I blog. this time, its a wu liao quiz of sort: what does my height say about me? they dont really have my exact height, about 171

What Your Height Says About You

You are cheerful, expressive, and creative.

You have the heart of an artist, and the whole world is your art project.

You are the type of person who says “yes” a lot. You are optimistic and giving.

You also love a challenge. You enjoy accomplishing the impossible.

You are about as tall as the average Japanese man or the average Dutch woman.

What Does Your Height Say About You?

When the going gets tough..

2008-09-26T15:25:00.002+08:00

I really shouldn't be doing this but I just feel like i gotta do some ranting.

We have an assignment for 'recess' week (my ass) but I dunno what Im doing! Ive been reading but not comprehending, typing but not understanding. Im scared shitless! Everytime I think about exams and assignments my insides shrink.

I dont want another D! I dont want another dissappointment! I dont want to cry silently! AGAIN.

What I do want:
Get decent grades (ie B average)
Get moving (exercise my dear!)
Lose weight (healthily)
Be happy (as always)
Make new, real friends

Im trying, I really am, despite all the excuses but Im not sure Im capable of it.

Scratch that, I can i know I CAN!

Signing off

Trying hard,
LiLz

CAKES!!!

2008-07-07T17:33:00.003+08:00

Just bought 2 cakes fr Coffee bean at S$5.95!! Damn cheap and of course, they are ALWAYS good.
Had a taste of it (still in office, cant really just eat the whole thing) but OOooOoooo... cant wait. Its really very cheap LOR. hahahah.. Felt a bit off when the cashier told me, S$ 5.55. lolz...

Imagine getting 4 slices of cakes (incl meringue, cheese, chocolate) at only S$ 11. Too good to be true? No way. Not sure why they have such a promotion but they have it everyday so you definitely wont get cakes tat are bad, as in, not edible or 'sour'. Maybe coz they dont get many clients at night? Even just now I only see the people who were seated only drinking stuff and not having any of the cheap cakes. mayb its beneath them, bleh!

Anyway, dont care what people think as long as 'I' get benefit fr it. :D

I never thought its so boring!

2008-07-03T11:03:00.001+08:00

Its my 2nd day at work and Im doing nothing! Yesterday, the other interns thought it was cool that I was doing SOMETHING on my first day but Im given nothing today, AT ALL! I think it has something to do with my position in the office. Its too far from where all the lawyers are. Out of sight, out of mind. Plus, its so near to the pantry that I can eat all day without fail. Its quite stocked really, tea, coffee, cookies, mee in cup etc. Way cool but I want work! Im not the makan gaji for nothing kind lor... Ergh, If this continues, Im not coming back next week.

Shell-shocked

2008-06-18T17:10:00.002+08:00

My Yr 1 2nd Sem grades are pretty shitty but Im over it, just gotta make sure it doesnt happen again but I was in store for another shock. The list of those getting Dean's List just came out and quite a few people in the list were pretty unexpected (for me). He got in too. Im ShOCKED! Not to say he is lousy or watever but i never thought he's tat good. I have to say, Im Proud. Im so happy for him. One thing for sure, i have an extra impetus to work harder. I can do it! I am sooo not beneath him. I slipped, thats all. Not gonna happen again, I swear.

This is a partial list of what I plan for next sem:
1) get 'B's, AT LEAST.
2) get my weight under 55kg. Im way overweight now and frankly, Im not liking it.
3) gonna join some debate tournaments (2 reasons: i need the points, i need the practice)
4) gonna work part-time; monthly salary aim: $ 100 (start low lar...)

From what I can see, this covers pretty much every aspect of my life, we'll c how it goes, promise i will update. my plan of getting my weight under 60kg before going back seems unlikely now but i promise i wont forget my ultimate goal. I Want to feel good. I Want to look good. Oledi have plans to undergo a meal replacement regime for the 1st month i go back (for the internship). C what happens then. I know it aint a permanent solution but i want fast results then try to keep it at that. keep thinking about going for diet supplements but am extremely worried itll be harmful so will try simpler ones 1st before going for drastic measures, hope i wont have to get to that.

Going Crazy

2008-04-21T10:23:00.002+08:00

Have been meaning to do a Legal Theory essay this morning but ended up doing more revision on the topic. Feel so useless, i have read more than half of the readings but still dunno how to do the questions. No doubt, i am incredibly worried about the exams coz its 2 compulsory questions in 2 hrs, close-booked. What if I dunno wat she is asking? Wat if i totally blanked out? without any books at all, Id probably die.

Legal Theory really isnt tat bad a topic. It is interesting to read ppl's view and the thrashing tat goes with it but when it comes to MY view, well, I just dont have one. even if I do, my view is totally my own and i rilli dunno how to substantiate it with the very freaking chim readings we were given. I like abit here, abit there, and a whole lot of criticism. Argh.. its making me wanna just ........... AAARGGHH!

Ok, its out, gotta continue. Next up: Robert Alexy's 'D Argument fr Injustice: A Reply to Legal Positivism'

1st Taste

2008-03-29T23:00:00.002+08:00

Of alcohol.... Ya, I actually had a taste of alcohol, specifically vodka, outside home tonight. No, it wasnt at a club or pub or anything... It was at a barbeque. Im so glad i went. Made some new frens and reinforced old frenships, u gotta right, sharing the same cup of drink?

It really wasnt too bad but din rilli leave an impression. Turns out it had 40% concentration of alcohol. Freaking bitter really. got the unripe banana/mango feel: 'giap' :D Id say i had 1/4 of a small paper cup, not much, admittedly, din get drunk but i oso din have the 'red face' thing happening either. I had wanted to c whether i get 'red face' easily, guess not, but a fren did tho... Gotta try out my jiu3 liang4 when i go home. We have whiskey and red wine i think, but i never liked red wine, find them too dry for my taste. Loved whiskey's fire though! Mayb coz i never tried the rilli high quality ones. I mean, there muz b a reason ppl like to drink right? right?

Finish the post with a bit of trivia: Alcohol is a depressant (unbelievable? Believe it!)

An Afternoon at Holland V

2008-03-24T17:11:00.000+08:00

I really have to control myself!! 1 afternoon out and S$80 gone! hhahahhaha... not on anything good oso....

1st, the food:
Provence - read raves about their bread (its a bakery) and tot of going (again, coz i went before but din pay much attention). Gotta say, their coffee smells good.. Coz they hav this cafe thing going on and Hhmmm... nice... but i din get tho... juz the bread (3 piece + 1 half loaf) oledi cost me S$7.70. Not cheap.. 3 PGP chicken rice but i finish the 3 small pieces d! Nothing special, i tot. The bread wasnt soft or anything neither was the chocolate very pure... feels like custard...

Starbucks - yes! finally... haven indulged in coffee tis sem til now but Im pretty disappointed. Got iced caramel macchiato which was SWEET!! caramel is nice but I cannot tahan the sweetness, rilli too much for me... can even finish my cup of coffee.,.. wat a waste!

Spent the most on Nails, did manicure at Lush Nails... the place was ok, provided green tea but i tot the girl was too quiet... i was b.o.r.e.d.... how can i not??? cannot touch anything... But the real reason i went was coz i broke my nail and i wanted to get it 'repaired' they call it 'silk wrap'. I was contemplating getting a manicure but i tot it too expensive. Alaz, the powers tat be has other plans.. Broke my nail during lunch. I took it as a sign i should try the place out :P
Am considering going for pedicure next coz they seem to do the whole scrub and all tat... and i need it, wat with the rough thick skin on my feet! but the basic price is S$ 33.. haiz... where got so much $$$????

Suan4 Ming4 LoL

2008-03-22T19:35:00.000+08:00

Got to know of it from another blog... Do u think its correct?

Apparently, regardless of how magical the 'master', he/it/she? dunno if Im a female or male :P
Can try it here..
http://www.fatemaster.tw/name.php?n1=%E6%AC%A7&n2=%E9%BA%97%E8%8E%B2&button2=%E7%AE%97%E5%91%BD

Cant say its all correct though... I DUN form groups or boycott or jadi batu api k?? i hate ppl like tat. I dun control other ppl's tots.

More li2 pu3 is the outward and actions part.

外表溫柔???? Hahahhaha.... My foot!

*事情會自己全部攬起來做 -- actually i try to get the less work positions, am prob one of the most lazy person on earth!

*有時太愛計較，讓自己很累 -- rilli meh? u judge lor.

*個性比較保守，做事相對也比較安份 -- will seem that way but trust me, if i follow my instincts all the time, things will be WAAAY different!

欧麗莲的內在想法

女生

*頭腦反應快，模仿學習力強
*個性主動積極，但也急性子
*在不如自己意時會搞小團體，或者做一些挑撥的事
*性格比較激烈急躁，是個耐心不足的女孩子
*對自己要求比較嚴格，在團隊中也不甘願認輸，比較好強

男生

*想得比較多，簡單的事也常常想到很複雜
*頭腦不錯，求學時成績良好，很會做筆記
*個性主動、積極，比較會去配合他人
*對於不熟的人防禦心比較強
*看起來很好說話，但倔強起來比石頭還硬

欧麗莲的外在行為

女生

*外表溫柔內心倔強的人，內心嚴重的缺乏安全感
*佔有慾會顯得比較強烈，常常會不安
*事情會自己全部攬起來做，比較勞碌命
*有時太愛計較，讓自己很累
*個性比較保守，做事相對也比較安份

男生

*沒什麼安全感，很怕失去生活中所擁有
*對於自己有利的事就會斤斤計較，不放過自己的利益
*不關自己的事就會顯得懶懶的，不予理會
*做事很有效率，速度非常快
*一開始覺得很有親和力，但被發現自私後，就會疏遠

Being Emo??

2008-02-27T16:00:00.000+08:00

I have just finished Memorial 1 last weekend. Another lousy paper but at least its over... D weirdest thing is, i dont feel a sense of relief. I guess I did when i uploaded the paper but deep inside, the stone is not lifted. As a kind of a break from school work I did not study for 2 days but, curiously enough, i felt guilty about it. Its like, Im wrong to not be as hardworking as i can be, as if thats all my like should b about. When did i become that kind of a person?

I still remember my days in KL, freaking carefree. Whenever Im bored, Ill drop by Midvalley for an afternoon while everyone went home to prepare for tutorials and all. I still do that at times but instead of feeling happy, I feel guilty. Is that why Singaporeans all seem to like shopping to death? Going out on weekdays, i was hoping to skip the crowds but alas, it was not meant to be. At F21 on Monday, I had to queue at the fitting room? Tangs was crowded too! What are all those people doing at shopping malls at 11am on a weekday? Or are they like me, shopping to feel better when they know they should not?

Life is tough here, the fittest survive. Seeing how people are concerned with their kid's schoolwork is proof. If you get First Class, u got a high chance of becoming a judge and they get paid A LOT. Its a totally diff thing back home. Luck and connections are what people hope they have. Getting all this out is making things clear for me as to why i feel how i feel. Im scared of losing out. Worried about not 'making it'. Am i being 'Singaporean-ised'??

Feeling Bad (Warning: Angry Post Ahead!)

2008-02-18T17:23:00.000+08:00

What The Hell!!??!!!?
I got a C- for my Stat Memo! My prob is not just that the grade sucks like shit but that I actually spent time on it!! i cant believe this. This is the worst grade I got for this year. And, frankly, I think its the worst 1 can get coz AY said no one got a D meaning the worst would be C-. Quite frankly, I know my work aint perfect but C- basically implies that either Im just so dumb that I never learn or that my intellect has gone down the drain. Getting the same grade, aka C/C+ is worse enough but going down gradient totally suck! The fact is that I worked on it. Period. Give me some credit for that, for Christ's sake! What about the 'u get what u sow' shit?? I have always believed in that. Guess if ppl are using fertilizers and you are not, lagging behind is on the cards. Im not angry that she gave me such a grade, Im angry at myself for getting such a grade! And, quite frankly, i dont know how to improve on it other than re-reading Neumann and doing MORE research but considering the Memo is due this Saturday and that I have Crim and Legal Theory AND ctt tutorial, I dont know how to deal! SHit Shit Shit....

Teacher and Gang

2008-02-13T19:59:00.000+08:00

Its been a while, hasnt it? Flew in on the 11th of Jan and its now 13th Feb. About a month has gone past since the semester started and I have gotta say, Im swamped! LoL... who isn't? Well, lets not talk about less-than-happy stuff, which by the way includes my celebration of Chinese New Year, lets talk about.. a movie. This post is going to be about a movie I saw on Reunion Night: Teacher Married Gangster (translated fr Chinese coz I dont know its English title).

Frankly, the newspaper dissed the movie but it turned out to be a high-grossing Singapore movie. Higher than any of those made before. Its director even noted word-of-mouth as the reason. Imho, the movie aint TAT good but rather than the acting, plot and all, I have more problems with THE WAY THEY PORTRAYED MSIA.

First, they show M'sia as this place where gangsters are rampant. Maybe its true (I honestly dont know) but they are not running all over the place!! Not in broad daylight!! The scene where people were fighting along the walkways was so preposterous I did not know whether to laugh or cry! It reminded me of Bollywood movies I used to watch as a child while thinking, where are the police?

Second, WHEN a figure of authority came, it came in the form of a security guard who seemed to be oblivious to the fact that it was a real gang fight. He was shown as a stupid person who really should not be in the position of maintaining order at all. What the?!?!? Msian policemen may be slack but trust me, when thrust in the limelight, where they can SHOW people they are doing their work, they do it! Esp in KL, where the top people are situated. Probably why KL is now where crime rate is highest, JB is.

Third, Msian Chinese do NOT sound like that!! Gosh... and the paper even remarked that the accent by the lead actor sounded authentic..... Bullocks... I cant even understand the way they structure the sentences and some of the words they used. Gotta feeling they did not do enough homework beforehand and is using the expressions wrongly. Ha! Dumbass... Dont act smart when you are not!

Anyway, there is no mistaken the accuracy of the lead actress' Cantonese. Am honestly perplexed as to whether or not it was dubbed. It sounded SO REAL. It also featured quite a few Msians: KK, MyFM DJ LDR etc. Unfortunately, they are so NOT famous that my friend did not know they were Msians and was amazed at their Canton. LOL...

This post seems abit angry, dont you think... I guess I did feel abit of that when watching the movie. Understanding that it IS make-believe does not help. Why dont they film in Sg? Why Msia?? Keep going Msia-Sg triad but most footage are from Msia, y? Like it or not, movies like that are watched, by Singaporeans. Already most of them have a lousy image of Msia as a lawless society. As close as the two countries are, many locals Ive met have never really been to Msia, even if they did, they usually flew, which meant the destination was cities like KL or attractions like Mt Kinabalu. Y?? Because they dont understand us. We already have the lousy relations between the two governments. We really dont need a movie like this to exacerbate the situation. Sheesh....

Preparation

2008-01-09T20:20:00.000+08:00

Not quite, haha... Haven started packing at all even though my flight is this Friday (Note: Time now is 8.22pm Wed). But, Im trying to be prepared for the mess that is waiting for me back in Sg. Checked out my classes. Unfortunately, or fortunately, depending on how u see it, I dun hav a single class with Him. I guess I still have lectures which is about twice a week where every1 will have to be in class, preferably. How can this have happened???? Even when they split the class into half, leaving a 50/50 chance for us to be in the same class, we arent. I guess things are just not meant to be. Lol.. Fate... There's no going against it.

To be frank, I really dont know what attracts me to him. Yeah, he's not exactly bad-looking, but so is another half a dozen or more guys in my year! There's no explanation in matters of the heart :P

Lets have an update of what happened in the last month i was at home. I got a new phone. Not the one i was hoping for, NK 5610 but a cheaper one 6120 but to tell the truth, other than the outer shell and the No of mega pixels of the phone, I dont rilli know the difference. A good phone with lots of functions is totally useless for me. I dont even know how to operate the bluetooth function! I only want a better phone coz i wanted a slide phone and camera. Talk about being simple. Why cant Nokia produce an affordable (note: under Rm1000), slim, slidephone with camera, preferably around 5MP. I honestly, couldn't care less about web-surfing and Bluetooth. I have memory cards and my laptop for that! Shows you what the people 'higher up' really knows about needs of ordinary ppl.

Scared

2007-12-05T21:29:00.000+08:00

Let me just say this, the post below is a joke! Nothing beats wat i feel rite now. Im writing this on the eve of my last paper - Contract. Its only a test rilli but i feel SOOO nervous. I cant think. Believe or not last night i only had long naps. I actually woke up to study in the middle of the night. I have no idea y, other than the fact that Im prob gonna screw the test up in a HUGE way, y i am so worried. Usu, Id just b nonchalant, it IS just a test. Usually, Id just b so excited its d last paper that Id b thinking how to celebrate. But not this time.. I am a wreck.. i broke down at least twice this afternoon. I rilli need to learn to cope with the pressure. I never felt like this. Exams are oni part of life, not life itself. I know this so y am i feeling this way! Tried taking a nap, cant. I did everything i can think of. Someone save me!!!

Oh Shit!

2007-11-18T22:33:00.000+08:00

I am so screwing myself up. I havent done much work in the past two days. Yes, I spent my weekend bumming, and Im not joking! Im so totally dead. With torts just 9 days away i dunno wat to think. I haven even STARTed on SLS. I dunno whether i should. Its so thick!! OMG OMG OMG..... Wat am i going to do?? I cannot mess this up again! Contracts, Ive just been skimming through the stuff i have. Gotta start reading the txtbk. Talking about txtbks, just realised i barely touched my torts txt. Wat a waste of $$... Hope it doesnt show in my answer booklets...

Please, anyone who reads this, pray for me....

Still like tat....

2007-11-05T21:08:00.000+08:00

Living in Sg is not that rosy. No parents, no home, no real friends. Im not saying my friends r fake but, they r not the kind i spill my heart out to. The friendship v hav seem so superficial. Mayb its my fault, for not telling but i feel after telling tat they dun understand and its tiring to keep trying to make them understand. I know, friends r not our dumpster but, hu else r u supposed to talk to? I never minded ppl complaining to me. I take it with pride even, tat ppl r confident enof 2 confide wif me.
All my dealings wif ppl involve keeping a smile in my face tho i dun feel like it. But not putting a front seem to be a 'sour plum', pulling down other ppl's mood oso. Tired...... tired of the front, tired of the struggle.... tired of the fake highs.

I NEED A BREAK FROM SG!!

Binder: The bane of an NUS Yr1 Law student

2007-11-02T20:41:00.001+08:00

Sucky!

How come common sense is not reflected in the law. Still rmb how v tot tat v hav a good case, that Plump is being stupid when v got our fact. Ultimately, the opposite is the truth, at least if u look at d cases. Frankly, a lot needs to b done for the law to b fair and just. V r probably going to concede. Mobil Oil seems to b the oni 1 that is vs us! Haha.. and, its pretty easy to distinguish that, rilli…. Common Law should b incremental , I got tat, but, shud it not reflect ppl’s common sense??? Haiz….. Stare decisis is stupid… haha…. Let just get it over and done with and start revising for exams!!! YooHOO!!

OMG, am i going crazy?? cheering for exams?? Coz not! I'm going home soon!!
SO SO Missing KK!

Lilz

Crush-ed

2007-10-24T22:32:00.001+08:00

I never knew what was heartbreak, how painful it would be, to like someone.
I now know the source of all love songs, the inspiration behind the lyrics, the muse of many poems.
But, it hurts. It does. It brings tears to my eyes to know he will never be mine. So near, yet miles apart.

You know who i am but u barely acknowledge my existence. I want to be close to you but i just lack the courage to try. You are the reason i smile for no reason, you are why i go mellow in seconds.

I need to let him go, let these feelings go, to set myself free. im trying, i really am, without avail. I've never felt like this, why do you have such power over me? Why do i lose all self-control when you come near? Why am i blogging about you knowing fully well that we are impossible?

Because, try as i might, you stil hold a place in my heart.

Still Down

2007-10-03T21:30:00.000+08:00

Its after my midterms, have no idea how i did but, rilli dun care.(until d results are out at least)

I dunno why but i seem to be perpetually in a slope. Every interaction i have wif another person seems so artificial, so superficial. Its tiring this way, going around without having a fren hu u can talk to, hu u feel like u trust and understand u.... Talking for the sake of filling up d silence, not being hu u wan 2 b.... And, i seem to be putting up a wall around me, not even smiling at Him when we pass by but its ok, Im pretty much over him but i dun like doing this, being all serious looking and sad..... Argh! i need to find me, the say wat i like, dun care a sh*t about anyone but myself me...... haha......

Crush

2007-09-13T23:51:00.000+08:00

Yes, Im crushing on sum1... and, i dunno how 2 deal... I feel like a 2ndary school girl all over again... Its sweet but heartbreaking at d same time. Here, it seem like every1 has their 'other half'. people i talk 2 like to, my bf...., my gf.... argh!! Im single! please b considerate, k?

He, is fit, seems nice, likes stupid pc games.... haha... tats all i noe. And, v r not in d same 'gang' meaning, i dun get 2 talk 2 him much but Im not sure i wan tat. In d classes i hav wif him, i look at him half d time.... Dunno if i hav any weird xpression on my face. If i do, id sooner or later get caught! His sorta nonchalant attitude is pretty cute.. i dun like guys hu are too petty but i dun wanna crush on ne1!! Its too distracting, especially if there's a HUGE chance he's oledi taken, its juz not worth d time and energy spent thinking of him. Him...... Hm...... Sum1 Slap ME!!

The Single Me

2007-09-06T16:35:00.000+08:00

This may sound weird to those who noes me but i feel so alone. At d xpense of sounding xtremely pathetic Ill disclose my previous dating xperience: NIL. Yes, Im 19 and hav never been in a relationship but frankly, i never feel the need 4 it. I used 2 think how boring it is 2 hav 2 stick 2 1 person all d time, how u wud hav 2 think of d other person when u do sth. but now, i feel different. Is it bcoz Ive grown up? Or is it bcoz Im now in Sg, i don noe, wat i noe is tat i wan 2 hav a relationship..... I wan 2 hav sum1 2 depend on, sum1 hu'l b there wif me, 4 me, a shoulder to lean on. I have been so independent all these years tat sum of my frens cal me da4 jie3(big sis) coz Im very outspoken and hav my own way of do things, which causes quite a lot of grief sumtimes s i tend 2 offend ppl w/o knowing it. Recently, a guy actually described me s 'cynical', Im a realist, ok! haha... its alrite, rilli....

Tired.

Tats how i feel after so many years of self-protection. Fr bullies, criticisms..... I wan sth else now. School is no longer d oni thing in my life, it shudnt b. I feel so weak. I hav bcome such so sensitive. I cry at stupid stuff and bcame more and more emotional. I noe, its stupid 2 think tat a guy wil b d solution 2 all my problems, watever they r but i dun think of them s such. I dunno wat i wan or y Im thinking of all these but...... I do feel very tired and weak, frail even. I dun seem so tho... I go around school alone, d lone ranger. I juz feel sick of needing 2 wait 4 sum1 all d time. Not rilli happy going thru life like this but, tats how it is, 4 now...... even typing tis, thinking of myself s a weakling makes my eyes start 2 water.....

I rilli hope tat i can carry myself thru tis spell and come out victorious....

Signing out,
Lilian.

The Last Lunch

2007-07-07T23:51:00.000+08:00

Im dedicating this post to my HELP frens. Thank u for all the help (pun intended) and care this past months. We went through quite a bit: assessments, assignments, tests, teachers..... and made plans. Unfortunately, I cant realise them with you guys. Genting, UK, Batu Pahat.... Hope you guys have fun, best wishes from me ya!

I dont think I had such experience as i had with you guys before. There has been so many firsts... You guys open up my eyes to what frens are supposed to be. I can never finish with my 'Thank you's...... I will forever be indebted 2 you guys... The times v spent together wil always remain with me......

*Hugs and Kisses*

p/s: WenChing- I will try my best.....

Ivy - No matter wat,.... v r frens still...

Shoes--a bad review

2005-12-05T21:18:00.000+08:00

After wearing a pair of wedges 4 d whole afternoon, my feet hurts like hell. Honestly, i dun remember my feet being so damn sore b4, I've gotta wear sneakers next time Im going out.

I very seldom wear sneakers when going out, its just not myself! However, i learnt thru tis tat spending a bit of time tying shoelaces might b worth it just 2 prevent a whole afternoon of uneasiness n a night crankiness.

I also hav 2 get myself a pair of newgoing out slippers. I reckon the reason 4 tis is cos d shoes r about a yr old, even tho i seldom wear it out. Hell, i just got 2 buy shoes with better paddings next time!

Driving Lessons

2005-12-04T15:22:00.000+08:00

I've been bugging my dad 2 let me learn 2 drive 4 a while now, so now tat d exams r over, he's teaching me 2 drive. I tried driving a few years ago n u wudm't believe how bad iwas. I cant even make d car move!

Naturally, i was pretty happy cos i am able 2 make a few rounds at d car park tat we went to. It seems like there is still hope 4 me yet! I havent even went 2 take d computerised test n d workshop yet so i guess there is still some time n4 i can officilly drive. However, if this keeps up, Im pretty sure tat Ill pass my driving exam on my first try. :P

The Fog-A review

2005-12-03T17:34:00.000+08:00

I watched the movie yesterday n really felt tat it was a total waste of time. If u're reading tis n haven watched it yet or r thinking of watching it, don't!
I had wanted 2 c Harry Potter but as d timing was not suitable, we settled 4 'The Fog". It was supposed 2 b scary but hell no. Honestly, I'm not d kind who wudn't flinched when watching ghost movies so, believe me when I tell u it is rilli boring. However, Tom Welling and Selma Blair's presence was a bit of a save but not much. Tom had a unshaven look so it , to me, didnt pay his good looks enough justice.
From the start, it was slow, n it went on 4 quite a while b4 u noe wat d hell is going on. $ an hour, you wud b thinking: Wat is tat all about?? Then u understand it but still it didnt made it nemore scary. Rather, i had a hard time controlling myself frm bursting into fits of laughter cos they r tryin so hard 2 seem scary but really isnt succeeding, not even one bit. Other than tat, it also has a very unexpected ending, in a not-so-good way.
I think tats enof of blabber 4 a while. Im gonna watch Harry Potter 2nite, hopefully, it wont b nother disappointment or i mite hav 2 give up watching movies.

Almost Done

2005-11-30T21:00:00.000+08:00

I hav just finished my bio SPM 2day. Phew! seems like i've waited 2 yrs 4 tis day 2 come. Even so, its not d end yet cos we still hav EST, which is rilli a dumb subject . I dun understand wat it is 4, imean, we cant study 4 it n it seems 2 b just another subject 4 us 2 c how good we r in English. Dun we already hav english 4 tat? Sumtimes i rilli wonder wat r in their minds....
I went 2 IS(Institut Sinaran) just now, to pay d fees 2 book a place 4 next yr's A-lvls. I dunno if i rilli wanna go there. I wud just luv 2 hav 6 mths 2 fool around wif b4 going back 2 school but i guess dad is scared tat my brain will rust. However...... they r not open, 3:30 in d afternoon n their office is not open! I'm so fed up, tis is d second time I went there n its not open.
Thats it 4 now, going browsing, c ya!